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I3lueberry
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Country: Canada
Birthday: 8/3/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: laughing, smiling, friend hugs and kisses.. rainbow searching, star gazing, sunset watching, family fun, shopping!!.. silliness, tanning, bball, craziness, running(in.circles), chatting,and wasting time!!
Expertise: HuGz and KisSes. and..evrything!! =) as long as its with YOU
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Member Since:
8/26/2003
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| HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY *XMILY*!!!!
look how we've grown baby! 
  
You know I love you, I always will, and always have J.. my crazy prettiful, crazy, Emily! U’re 18… it doesn’t mean we can do much more yet.. but who the hell cares.. party it up J haha.. it is crazy the ora that takes us over wen we’re together, its like we’re on sumthing.. or are we? Haha.. dun dun dun….~!! haha.. thnx for all the memories and we got so much more to come. The BEACH ( we WILL get there), metro, bbt, steveston walks, to the OPEN yokohama, and many more crazy dates J no more tears k babe.. cuz its SUMMERRRR! Love you to pieces.. if you haven’t gotten the point yet.. we’re both dorks.. luv YOUUu <3  <!--[if !vml]--><!--[endif]--> xoxoxooxoxo - xtina
Karen.. I’ll miss U!
i know you're not gone forever.. but it feels like it!! <3 u!!
** grad pics to come..**
http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2124118090
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It’s gorgeous outside!!.. the sky, the sun, the warmth. Hmm.. maybe I should go tan, and go get skin cancer. [but lets not talk cancer k?]
I realized the other day that there are a lot of things that are bothering me and I didn’t even know it. I mean I just cried and cried and cried, and I just couldn’t stop. I even cried at work. Sounds retarded but I did. It leads to me just being sad. I guess I have this ability to make everything seem that much worse than it really is. I guess I’m beginning to notice the little flaws in things, weaknesses in people, and question some other things. I honestly feel like I’m one of those people, just standing there in the middle of a street and everyone is rushing around them. You know those pictures? When there’s just one person standing there and everyone else is running by them. It seems everyone has a direction, purpose, love, happiness.. and I’m just here waiting for something amazing to happen or someone to notice me. Everyone has a someone, a future, and I have, well, i have capsules..
 < you think she's trying to tell me something?
I must say it’s very frustrating, and I’ve never felt so lost, discouraged and alone. I seriously want to move. I want to go to somewhere far away and start over. I want to just run away, from everything. And just relax and best of all, be happy, content. I want to fly away.. anyone want to fly away with me ?? *sigh… but that’s just a childish fantasy.. so I guess in the meantime I’ll just keep sitting here… waiting.. dreaming..
Well that was depressing, but nevertheless. I’m happy for everyone that is super happy right now, and when I say everyone I mean EVERYONE. I’m so glad that you’ve found that one thing/ person that makes you smile and makes your life that much better. Hold onto that, cause you’ll really feel the regret when you lose that. Those moments, butterflies, are irreplaceable, unforgettable, and will leave you forever changed.
"I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal." --Vita Sackville-West
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The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
| Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
| In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Saturday nite:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNICE.. I LOVE YOU
> :: > :: >  so glad we’re married
So we got all sexied up.. and went to roz’s house to get picked up by a super nice limo haha.. it was amazingness haa. Everyone looked SOOO hot.. haha.. guyz and girls both included. Its amazing how much difference dressing up a lil can make for any kind of event.
Just the nite was incredible.. in the sense that I finally got to let everything out.the scenery was amazing at night, with the reflection and just it being night time. I ruined my stilettos, my hair was a poof wen I got home, I couldn’t walk in a straight line, I’ve never sang so badly in my entire life (yay.. disney songs lol)  , I narrated everything that I did, my jacket was dirty from sitting on the roof, but yet I’ve never felt more relieved cuz that was just an amazing night, you realize a lot of things on nights like these, people that mean a lot to you and sometimes people that don’t mean quite so much.
I can’t exactly say wut it is that has been bothering me, but there’s just been a lot, and although prolly half of the limo people heard wut I was saying but were too drunk to understand,, a portion prolly just didn’t care.. and the last few were listening and understanding (thanks btw) it was kind of both a sad and happy nite for me.. I realize, that wen I’m down like this, I resort to rebellious stuff haha.. its REALLY bad.. but its my outlet rite now.. and its wut I see.. but I got ppl looking out for me so its all good haha..
Group PICCC!!
“sometimes love just ain’t enough” I can’t say it any better cuz sometimes it isn’t. cuz unfortunately in life we have circumstances and things can’t always go the way we want them to. The best we can do is have faith in the future and hope that god has it all figured out for us.. I just pray that I make it thru all this.. just gotta trust that everything will work out, and hope that ur friends will be there for you…. Unless they aren’t.. cuz then u’re screwed… wow.. I’m being super depressing haha.. but just hope that you have good friends that support you.. and are truthful.. and are there for you more than just in good times, but in bad, and talk to you more than just wen their sad. Those are the ones you shuld treasure. The ones that tell you like it is, and aren’t afraid to go out of their way to be there for you. I hope you have friends like that..
Summary: life sux.. BUT wut can you do about it.. just let go.. and trust..
“When you come to the end of everything you know, and are faced with the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen. Either there will be something solid for you to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly.” – Barbara J. Winter
Xmily… I accept ur apology for getting me sick
** i haven't forgotten about today, i really miss us... 
you asked me how i'd been... i guess that's when i smiled and said just fine... oh but baby i was lying...
http://www.links2love.com/love_lyrics_277.htm
^can you imagine having ur entire world come crashing down, can you imagine previously being a virtually straight A student and in one year losing it all, then finally, to top it all off, being asked by your mother whether you're even going to pass gr. 12, and following by saying that its YOUR fault taht you screwed up ur own gr 12 year, well i'm glad she has faith in me... *sigh.. i'm sorry she feels that way, that i'm a failure and that i am going to fail.. life just keeps getting better~ thanks for the support mom !
xoxo.... xtina <3 | | |
| Boat cruise was AMAZING I loved <3 it soo much.. thanks so much anson for the ride J although I didn’t see u much, the car ride there was super fun, hey, brush up on those driving skillz eh? Haha. Jk jk.. I’m glad I made it there alive .. thanks for everything.
it was so much better than winter formal of course cuz xmily was with me J. She wuldn’t let me ditch her.. haha.. jk jk.. it made it that much more special. Lots of craziness, laughs and chats. This girl really knows her timing she’s saved my life twice. *wink wink. She looked super hot in her *specially* picked out outfit. CORSET = HOT lol **. Luv you xmily!!! Bffe~
I loved it all, yes, even the part when the guy in the boat next to us mooned us haha. everything was so pretty and everyone looked so good. I had no sleep the night before cuz I was working on my dress but apparently I was still able to get enough energy to take some 80 sumthing pictures haha.. how culd I not? Everyone was gorgeous and these are definitely moments you don’t ever wanna forget. Lots of fun.
Even the limo ride home, yelling super random things out the window, talking to some random guy on the sidewalk and bitching at ppl to my hearts content haha..i was spreading “random acts of kindness” haha.. for human services by telling random ppl that they were hot~ everyone likes to feel hot every once in a whie.
and bp afterwards. Thnx Jennifer for the JACKET. It was super warm, cuz I was super freezing and you looked super nice. Nice skirt! Who did YOU buy it with haha. Caitlin, neela and krista, u gurls are the crazy ones, not ME haha.. I’m glad you had a good night to laugh at me… we must have a limo ride with “COOL’ ppl next time… sound familiar haha.. still can’t believe I said that. And all that other shit. thanks so much who made this such a memorable night for me, ill never forget it. 2nd last grad event L… okiez. Enough words, see some pics !
april. Steph. Jen. me
krista. me. neela. caitlin.shira.
me. emily (xtina. xmily)
more pics at :::::::::: ENJOY!! <3 xtina
http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2126891042
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